on 9/9 through 9/11/94
by
Gloria A
For the past ten years
I have been separated from my active profession life by the devastating
symptoms of neuro-Behcet's disease. I have exercised great self discipline
while I worked toward a spontaneous remission of this enigmatic disease
that robbed me of my strength, my power, and my ability to function on
many levels. As a perpetual students, I researched and tried many complementary
health care modalities. So it is that I have incorporated into my healing
meditations, hygiene, physical exercises, and daily life
various facets of
neurolinguistic programming, imaging, visualization, affirmations, prayer,
thanksgiving, yoga, acupressure, biofeedback, ayurvedic practices, positive
thinking, music therapy, color therapy, and reaching out to help others
on the physical and the etheric level. I have been extremely successful
in my diligent daily practice. I have been able to eliminate almost completely
traditional drugs that most patients take daily for life. I have
been able to reclaim access to my brain, and a good portion of my muscle
tone. I am more able than most other similar patients, but I need to work
at this daily with great commitment.
Accepting my purpose in life, the reason that I continue to survive this disease so long... I founded a non-profit organization called Heart to heart Associates, Inc., in order to reach out to help teach people how to heal themselves while growing into their full potential. We are much more than we seem. HTHA also seeks to bring about a marriage of traditional medicine with complementary modalities of health care.
In the past I had climbed up and fallen down time after time. Lately I had been steadily and slowly climbing up the steep steps cut into the side of a tall mountain. Now I paused to find that the step before me was irregularly tall. I needed some kind of a boost to make it to the next step.
When I heard of the Boston Yan Xin Qigong Workshop, my heart leaped up. Was this to provide the boost I needed? Although the fee represented an untimely investment I felt that I had to attend. With great excitement and anticipation of great healing and/or increasing awareness, I called to reserve a place in the workshop.
I had many conversations
with Hui Wang, Hong Jiang, and Lu about the coming workshop. I was concerned
about the long hours of the schedule. Because of my limited stamina, I
have to lie down to sleep often. Also I eat many small meals during the
day to increase my energy level. I was anxious about my health and my ability
to stay awake and aware enough to take advantage of the workshop. Also
I was concerned that
I might exacerbate an attack and miss out entirely. They told me that the
power of the energy field produced in the room where Dr. Yan was teaching
would provide the needed re-energizing necessary.
Finally at the Sheraton Commodore Hotel in Cambridge standing in the midst of so many people milling about speaking Chinese in various tones of excitement and confusion, I felt as though I was back in downtown Hong Kong. As in nature there was order in this seeming chaos, and so I progressed through the various stages of registration and picture taking for my I.D badge. People were helpful and cordial in making me fell welcome.
Everyone was excited
about attending this workshop. Finally I received an 8" x 11" blue covered
hand out entitled The Nine Steps of Yan Xin Qigong. Checking into
my private room I unpacked a few things, scanned the Nine Steps, and rushed
down to the registration desk again to find my new friend Hui Wang so that
we could walk together at 6:45 P.M. to the Science Center Building in the
Harvard University
Yard for the opening ceremony, which was scheduled to begin at 7 P.M..
Excitement mounted
in the room as Ms. Jang Zhong began the ceremony with her opening speech
and then a long procession of dignitaries that each needed to give a speech.
Finally all rose to show respect as Dr. Yan Xin walked out onto
the stage. By now
I was exhausted and hurting. My ears ached from the noise.
The neat, diminutive figure in a conservative business suit talked about the meaning of Qigong, and of the need to live a virtuous life in order to achieve maximum benefits from the practice of Qigong. Finally at about 10 P.M. Dr. Yan started to teach us breathing necessary to develop a good meditation environment.
There were about 650 people in the room. The bioenergy field grew more and more powerful. There were two interpreters in our corner of the room. A young woman sat in the far corner interpreting. She was so fast that it seemed that the words flowed both through her and the speaker simultaneously. Frank Zhu sits next to Hui Wang on the steps closer to where I sit. They alternate with interpreting. Dr. Yan explains that it is difficult and not necessary to hear every work clearly. He will speak very rapidly. We will get what is appropriate for each of us even as he builds the power of the bioenergy or electrical force of the Qi in the room. At times the sound is deafening. I feel that I cannot stand it. I cannot sit comfortably. I am exhausted. I squirm to stay awake. I close my eyes to better hear the words.
Then I breath to encourage further relaxation, and I just let the sound wash over me without any preconceived notion of how it should be. In the front right hand side of the hall, a young Chinese woman screams and begins to wail aloud over the protests of the older woman with her. Dr. Yan warms the woman not the hinder the younger woman in any way. It is important to allow her to give voice and movement to the power of the Qi as it makes its way through her body. Each person felling the Qi is encouraged to move and to cry, scream, to laugh to allow the energy to flow unhindered. Each person is to experience what he or she is feeling and not look at his or her neighbors. Go within to feel what is happening to you. This is a personal thing that is happening to you. Allow your neighbor the privacy to experience his or her own feelings.
About 10 P.M. Dr. Yan actually started to teach simple Qigong positions in the Science Center Hall filled with 650 people. The power in the room was now palpable. As the electricity passed through my body I chanted Ohm Loudly to allow it quick passage. Great heat filled my body. I began to sweat. My breath tasted foul. My pores seemed to open to allow the passage of long stored toxins. There seemed to be an egress of long blocked and diseased energy via every pore of my body. It was a supreme purging in an invisible sauna.
I felt pain in my knee, my neck, my head, my eyes, my ear, and in my groin, right and left. The pain in my reconstructed left knee was so severe that I could hardly bear it. Truly I wanted to scream like that first young woman. At this point I still felt too embarrassed to really let go to that extent. There was great energy, heat, and healing in my head and eyes, particularly on the right side. Every cell in my body was aware of the power of the purifying Qi passing through. I welcomed the sensation gratefully.
It was well after midnight when the ceremony ended and we stood to clap while Dr. Yan left the stage. I walked down toward the stage to thank both Hui and Frank for their excellent work throughout that long grueling talk. Similarly I complimented Jang Zhong for her integral role in the evening ceremony and in the coming workshop. My body felt purged, lighter, and refreshed, and even as I stood there waiting for Hui.
Feeling wide awake
and alert, I returned to the hotel to retire for the night. I was amazed
that I was still up and about. Tremendous healing was started in every
cell in my body. I felt electrically charged although it was 1:30 A.M.,
and I had a very stressful, busy day both Thursday and Friday without my
usual afternoon nap. I was glad that I was alone in this silent room where
the sounds of the previous five hours echoed in my head. Amazingly I slept
soundly for just 2 hours. Then up to do my usual healing meditation,
stretches, P.T. exercises,
and self massage. My left knee was healing a lot. There was
a lot of heat in my knee. particularly on the right side. At times I still
felt that knitting sensation.
Finally up for good at 6:30 A.M. Left knee still seems hot, but I am shocked now to find that my knee has returned to its original size after 12 years. Dr. Micheli, my surgeon, had assured me that my knee would always be misshapen after he stitched the fragments of ligament and muscle together laterally and laced through behind the knee cap. Now this morning the square part on the inside of the left knee is gone... it seems to have been reabsorbed. Also it have returned to almost the same size as my right knee. The healing was still on-going. I could feel the heat and the knitting sensations deep in the tissues.
I was thrilled beyond
words to see and feel the results of this healing so early in the program.
If the power of this healing field could reabsorb tissue so rapidly, what
could it do to heal the inflammation of my brain and eyes? What could it
do to restore my immune system to perfection? Thrilled with the results
already evident in my knee, I approached the new day with anticipation.
My mind felt clear
and alert, and I felt absolutely no pain in my head or body. "Disease is
no longer necessary for my lesson and my challenge!!!"
Although I was not hungry, from my bag I ate a bran muffin, an apple, and two figs with lots of spring water. I knew that many people would not be eating food as the power of the Qi fills them with nourishment that precludes or diminishes the need to eat solid food. I am afraid to do that although my body really fells no desire for food.
Excited to learn to do Qigong positions well, while being exposed to the healing power of Master Yan, I prepared my bag with water and fruit for the day. We were scheduled to go from 9:30 A.M. until 1:30 A.M. the next morning. Our breaks were minimal. The restaurant in the hotel was closed for repair. I prayed for strength and stamina.
Saturday started a marathon performance by both Master Yan Xin and the interpreters who did spontaneous interpretation. Listening and not listening I managed to understand just enough to follow the stories, case studies, lecturing on virtuous living, and the teaching of the basic nine steps of Yan Xin Qigong. At times the energy surged through my body making me dance with the Qi. I marveled at the endurance of the people around me. Then I realized that my stamina was unusual also. I felt the need to drink from my bottle of spring water as my lips grew parched, but I did not feel hungry at all. At times I did feel very tired and sleepy, but that would pass quickly, and I as refreshed once more.
I had registered for
this workshop willing to become totally well and strong as never before
in all of my adult life. I wanted energy to
walk my path to help
other. I no longer needed disease to remind me of my mission and my purpose.
<u>I was not disappointed! The heat of the brightly colored energy surged
through each cell of my body, renewing, revitalizing, re-energizing all
in its path.
The next two days passed
in a kaleidoscopic blur of sound, energy, exercise, meditation, and gentle
new friendships. I came away in
wonder at the marvel
of those shimmering hours. Since then I have incorporated Yan Xin Qigong
practice into my daily healing routines.
I still eat less and
sleep less than before, while enjoying greater energy and stamina than
I have experienced in years. The practice of
the Nine Basic Steps
of Yan Xin Qigong offer me a simpler way to combines imaging, visualization,
and neurolinguistic programming,
and affirmations into
my daily procedures with even greater focus and effectiveness Qigong espouses
all of these modalities that it took me years
to research one at
a time.
Also I feel very supported
on my own path to help people via Heart to Heart Associates. I share Master
Yan Xin's philosophy of virtuous living. This practice reinforces my beliefs.
As I practice daily, I feel happy and relaxed, even though I am not yet
very proficient. Because of my long commitment to healing myself, perhaps
it is easier for me to adapt to this new discipline. I feel very strongly
that Yan Xin Qigong practice when embraced with an open heart can help
anyone and everyone to improve the quality of his or her life, while bringing
more peacefulness and unconditional love to the universe. I am pleased
to have met Master Yan Xin, for he has
helped to illuminate
my path, and inspire my greater resolve to expand, explore, and experience
my own full potential.
(
After reading this, you may check your local area for Master Yan Xin's
practitioners, I found them to be very honest and usually are college students
and teachers. His Qigong is a good introduction to the universe of
Taoist Alchemy. Commentary by Sat Hon 3/24/1999)